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You told me you wanted to talk over text today because I hadn't responded to a text image you sent this morning. You said it didn't feel good to not get a response. I didn't know that it needed a response. A picture of re-bar on the trailer of a semi. Okay... 

Maybe I'm autistic. Maybe you live with me, and conversation in person is something better for me then text. I literally see you almost every evening. Do we need to text during the day? Maybe instead of sitting in front of the tv, you could talk to me instead? Do you text me during the day because you don't talk to me at night?

Anyways, I cam home to you having a nap, and then you weren't feeling well? Did you catch my cold? I brought up the text messages, but you didn't talk to me? Did you overreact? Are you to tired? Why can't we connect?

I've literally changed my job and work hours in an attempt for more connection. Felt like it was my fault for not being around as much. Maybe it's your 50-60 hour work weeks that are taking the toll. Is that harsh for thinking that? I can't be all to blame, but I am a common denominator. 

Maybe I just want to be loved. Is this why I've kept them for longer than I should have? If I'm so difficult, why are you still here? Is this not working? You haven't done anything wrong.

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